Is it wrong to feel pretty only when people say you are pretty? I don’t think so. How you see yourself is way different than how others think of you. It’s bullshit to say that people should stop thinking about what other people think about you because you can’t. You stopped because you have started thinking about what other people would think about you. You care about what people thought of you and yes, you care about how you look because you care about what people would think. And I might seem to feel confident about myself, truthfully, I’m not. It pains me to feel pretty only when people say I am pretty. It’s bad that I have to have approval first from others before I can accept myself. And lately, I hate that I don’t feel confident about how I look just because people aren’t noticing me. It’s making me all depressed and sour. I am already bitter about that at work and then I found out that I wasn’t really liked by this guy. so yes, I hate it. I hate that I flirted and it was such an ugly move. Ugly move by an ugly girl, yes.
Those flowers didn’t mean anything; if it did you’d still be here.
"Sometimes I wondered if he only lived in my head."